feeling that sth is missing

i have been thinkin' about it for days like we are always chasing or catching the things around, which we are supposed to be interested in as we hope or guess. however, everything is changing in a fastened way by its own, about which we have no idea or be able to recognise the titles going' on. i am in a confused mood like anna in "anna and the moods", trying to manage the possibilities and catch the clues of life about the coming happenings in the comming days which has loads of surprises inside. by the way it is still cool to be curious and not to be any more, despite collecting the moments we have with the others and accidentally. generally we do not recognise our needs at the right time or place or ...whatever. we are just growing in such a "grassy" mood, we got from the surroundings. all are scepticals. . . actually we tend to trust; but we are not be able to. actually we tend to be in love; but we are not be able to. actually we tend to feel the power inside; but we are not be able to. full of representation and full of show as well.
whereas there are pin holes all around, for the ones whom are trying to see the reality in a traumatic sooth; and holding their wonderlands with some hands..

let's read OSHO; to write, think and accumulate as positively as we can.

now i have to explain malmö to miss universe.. where is my camera, bordel?