Tuesday, October 31, 2006

Explain Malmö to Miss Universe..




Well!! But who is she? Why is she the Universe? What is special with her? Does she prefer an explanation of Malmö rather than nothing? Does she like explanations; somewhere, somehow? She is a creative person with her wild feminist attacks to life and also a really talented and exciting woman. Perhaps a real one. How could I explain to her the place where she lives; as a well-known and loud person, she does. Probably a blanc photo paper could be enough to let her use her own way and imagination?? Nooo!! She has to listen this time.To my words! Her personality should be my inspiration fairy. Let’s do it then.

If you were a real woman or feminist or some artificial creature in the world, what would be your way to express your inner part into a city? Melancholy, fear, height, loneliness, courage, nature, feeth, red, hands,veins, green, nailpolish, readily handmade feeling, skin, self-confidence, passion, your room....etc. As Virginia said, the room of a real woman can be decorated and living just like her; and her windows can be the doors which are completely open to life and harsh reality.

I always loved her; Virginia is my purple.

Thus, I opened my windows to the city in the very early morning; let my smell fly in the air; used my toe-ringed footh as my primitiveness and anger to life by trying to be able to walk,develop and discover alone while the ring was blinking with its metal and cold surface during the deal with the sun; put my footh in front of the window like walking through the sky on barefooth; felt the wind underneath my skin; was totally open to the sun; squeezed the grass and the nature and the building and the life and the reality and the consciousness and the ordinariness and the construction under my soul; closed my eyes; felt the confident pressure somewhere inside and took the picture.

I am still awake, cold and standing on my own bottom; like she does, somewhere, somehow....

Friday, October 13, 2006

feeling that sth is missing

i have been thinkin' about it for days like we are always chasing or catching the things around, which we are supposed to be interested in as we hope or guess. however, everything is changing in a fastened way by its own, about which we have no idea or be able to recognise the titles going' on. i am in a confused mood like anna in "anna and the moods", trying to manage the possibilities and catch the clues of life about the coming happenings in the comming days which has loads of surprises inside. by the way it is still cool to be curious and not to be any more, despite collecting the moments we have with the others and accidentally. generally we do not recognise our needs at the right time or place or ...whatever. we are just growing in such a "grassy" mood, we got from the surroundings. all are scepticals. . . actually we tend to trust; but we are not be able to. actually we tend to be in love; but we are not be able to. actually we tend to feel the power inside; but we are not be able to. full of representation and full of show as well.
whereas there are pin holes all around, for the ones whom are trying to see the reality in a traumatic sooth; and holding their wonderlands with some hands..

let's read OSHO; to write, think and accumulate as positively as we can.

now i have to explain malmö to miss universe.. where is my camera, bordel?

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

gözde, confused..

Angel I can see myself in your eyes
Angel won’t you feel for me from your heart
Do return my heart to me
No don’t insist I’m already hurt

Elephant girl
It was an accident unfortunate
Angel threw me like a rubber man
Aiming for the ground
Why amuse yourself in such way
No don’t insist I’m already hurt

Lay me down on the ground softly softly
Don’t remove my head hurts much too much

You never return it
Well I wouldn’t miss it
I shed no tears for broken me
You never know it my peace of mind
Now inside and outside are matching

Why amuse yourself in such way
No don’t insist I’m already hurt
If you never return it
Will it break your wings
Will you shed no tear for broken me

Tuesday, October 10, 2006

waiting till









sunbathing
under
the moonlight....